I need...

...to write. Perhaps that is really what is needed. There is a deep and profound sadness in my life and I have ideas about the contributing factors but no real way to grab and fix those things that are beyond my control. I am beginning to think that the best way to sort through it all and get it out is simply to write...and get it out somewhere.

I have also come to the realization that our blog has been grossly neglected...although it is entirely plausible that this is not something I really had to realize as much as it simply needed acknowledging. The issue here is that I felt I was boring you, our sole and lonely reader. I didn't have anything really "new" to say and I can only thrill you with so many pictures of our little princess pooch, Brandi. My husband is an amazing man but does not like his pictures posted here, and considering I am not a fan of having my picture taken at all, I can hardly blame him.

Recently I read a friend's newly created blog. She doesn't bother with pictures. She just writes (and very eloquently at that). Reading her thoughts is rejuvenating, refreshing and inspiring to me. I've come to understand that this doesn't need to be about entertainment value or filling the world in on the redundant day to day stuff. It needs to be about anything. In that knowledge and with that understanding-I've decided to use this forum to write. Just write. I'm not promising pictures or thrills. What you will get is simply what's on my mind. My intention is to let it out. I most likely can't solve the things that are making me truly sad but perhaps this outlet will provide some relief.

Now, before I begin about what's sad in my world, I believe it is imperative to mention what is not. My husband is the light of my life. He is my everything and without him I would be lost. His mere presence is enough to make me feel safe and comforted, and with him by my side and me by his, there is nothing we can't face togehter. Also right: my cuddle-bum Brandi-dog, my career as it is right now, and generally day to day life. Don't mistake me. Life IS good. It's the ability to keep it that way and my concern and empathy for outhers now and in the future that is inspiring this current word splurge.

Now you know what to expect and perhaps understand that what follows may be totally unexpected. I know that my goals are. I'm trying to do better here (in this blog). My hope is that with this new conceptrual idea for this blog, I will be able to satisfy not only your desire to read, but my desire to purge this sadness within.

That will be it for today. More WILL follow. I am making an effort at this committment.

(PS...it should be noted that my current mood is no longer the deep melancholy I felt this morning when I formulated this blog. I am currently at peace. My hubby took me out for V-Day, yoga was tonight, and this word splurge have all contributed to a state of mind in which I find myself still concerned for the others but personally content)